Bitter Sweet moment

We arrived back at the house to find our son sleeping. As we both stood over him, looking and watching him sleep, a rush of emotion filled us both and we began to cry. Through the tears I watched AA rise and smile and reach out his arms to his mother. I am certain that this is what she needed in that instance. Moments earlier we received the news that our new baby had passed away at some point over the past week. At this time, there was no heart beat and there had been no growth. We now face the fact that there will be no baby growing, only missing. Please keep us in your prayers. There is a fine lining in all this though. God is faithful and true to his word. I see that in my son, I see that in my wife, and know it in my heart.

AA the mimic

This weekend we were out to eat and AA picked up a new habit. Just prior to mom handing some hot food over, she blew on it to cool it off. AA took it in hand and did the same. I'm not sure he knows what he is doing but it's funny to watch and hear. After few moments he eats it up and wants more to do the same with. He is such a little character. As you can tell, the weekend was uneventful and we continue to wait on any news regarding the new baby.

Double A Update

Walking...that was nothing. AA is into everything. In fact just he other day he removed air vents and placed wooden spoons and other objects down the into the duct work. As he did so, he laughed and laughed some more as daddy retrieved his buried treasure. Not only is he into places he shouldn't be, he is beginning to repeat things he hears on the television, especially the Mickey Mouse club House. Mickey has a special helper that he calls on when he needs a specific tool. Austin now calls for his during the show, after the show, and pretty much all the time. "OOOOHHHHHH, TOOOOOOOOTLES!!!!, he shouts. Life is great and AA is incredible.

Roller coaster ride continues

Just this past week we returned to the doctor and this is the result. The heart beat was stronger and at 114 beats a minute. However, there was no growth of the baby. This is an alarming sign and the doctor believes it to be a sign that there is a 75% chance of a miscarriage. Now, for some of you, these odds aren't promising but, for me, i like our chances even at only 25%. I serve a God that answers prayers and performs miracles. Even though I can't see it, I know that little life is in God's hands. He's got the whole world in his hands.

PRAISE THE LORD, WE HAVE A HEARTBEAT

Well, from the title you can tell that we are the recipients of some of the most wonderful news ever. Today we returned for a followup ultrasound. This time, the baby decided to cooperate and give us a listen to his/her heart. We saw and listened to it. The only the thing the stenographer could do was apologize for the last mistake. The heartbeat was at 98 beats a minute and they want to see it higher. However it has been determined that we are in week 6 of the pregnancy instead of week 8 or 9. This will self correct as we progress. Anyways, we introduce to you our second child...to be named later.

Unthinkable

I have recently come to better understand the feeling of emotional devastation. However, in my moment of devastation, I also expereinced a level of comfort that can not be dismissed. Yesterday, RA and I visited the doctor for our first ultrasound of this pregnancy. At that time, the baby was found to have no heartbeat and certain miscarriage is imminent. My heart sank to depths I have never felt...That was drafted on Wednesday March 7, 2007 and never posted. Fast forward to Friday March 9. We returned to the doctor for what we knew would be certain bad news. However, God and a miracle arrived at the doctors office before we did. Earlier that morning, RA had blood work done and it came back with resounding confirmation that her pregnancy was on schedule. All levels and blood work indicated that everything was headed in the right direction. The doctor is of the mindset that the ultrasound may have been done to early or the accuracy of the reported date of ovulation was inaccurate. Either way, it was amazing news. We are not out of the woods just yet so keep praying for this little miracle. Not to go too philisophical but I am taking each day like someone famous once said, " In life, you either believe everything is miracle or you believe nothing is a miracle." I BELIEVE!!!!!